Sitting here with tears streaming
Been in the same spot for so long I’m drowning
Suffocating for a lease of life
Crying until I’ve forgotten what I was crying for
Continuously feeling a lack of control
Seeking temporary fulfilment
Then I’m back
In the dark
Wondering if everything I’ve believed in so far was only a dream
In the mist of a nightmare
People forever giving out opinions for free
But then ask me to earn their motivation and assistance
In the form of success
Huh.. Backwards
I realise I’m not the only one confused
It seems society is
Chasing happiness is what has made a lot of people lose respect for me
Can you imagine
To laugh and smile brings negativity
Because money is the only reason
Only solution only truth
So for me to be happy I will lose so much
I will have to continue wailing to gain happiness
I will have to fight and become drained to prove that my happiness is worth the same as any other
I will cry
I will cry
I used to care when I felt as though people didn’t respect me
Understand that now when I cry it is not for you
Not for your opinion
Not for your beliefs
But only for the doubt in mine
When I wipe my tears away I smile
I am not broken
I am not broken